::I’m not always okay.
Days hang without home in the quiet. Not all days, some. I drift out with the tide receding, fleeing from shore, the sand on fire. And all I want to do is float. Maybe sink a little, too.
It gets lonely not forgetting.
The woman who was my wife, whom I loved fully and forever, died.
I remember what’s been done, how life would not stop, how her body would not heal, how I trusted God only with words while my heart seethed betrayal. Yes, I remember.
I remember that I’m okay with what’s been done and in days laid in waste and wait, those words trusting bloomed alive. I know that it is not my doing, but His strength continually coming into its own.
::I do not need to always be okay.
My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness. (2 Cor 12:10, The Message)
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
(Psalm 147:3, NIV)